It’s really just all the pain that’s pulling her down. The thought and the fear that she isn’t good enough will forever haunt her thoughts. Worried for tomorrow because living for today is what’s brought her to this sadness. Fifteen years from now she dreams of becomingsuccessful- not hopeless. Fifteen years from now she wants to see greatness sprout out of her body and mind. Fifteen years from now she want to feel glorified and honored for her accomplishments. But tell me, what has she really accomplished? Failing? Has she really accomplished being a failure? I know she strives. She strives to be on top but her hard work won’t cut. It won’t cut because it’s not enough. She can’t live for today because she has to live for tomorrow… for fifteen years from now. It’s not right to sit around and mop but that’s all she can do. It’s not even all about her failing but it’s about not balancing priorities. Maybe she’s too caught up on the short term goals instead of the long. Or maybe she’s too distracted by the big picture? The thought will haunt. The thought will hurt. The thought can kill. Kill the happy soul and dismantle the positive thoughts and flood it with hate and doubt. One day she’s going to hate herself for all of this. She’s going to hate how one day she won’t be able to fix all of this. This is why she needs to strive now. She needs to put aside all the distractions and repaint that big picture. Repaint and repair the missing pieces and broken spots. Fix up the cracks to make it whole again. What she needs is faith and motivation. She needs to look up and thank the savior for his works and pray for guidance. Pray for success and happiness. Pray for comfort and love. Pray that one day she won’t look back to hate herself, but to pat herself for striving through. But tonight she isn’t too happy. Tonight is just one of those ugly nights that make her feel like complete waste. What’s good left for her? Who knows.
• When I’m telling the truth, you think I’m lying. When I’m lying I’m just in deeper shit. What the hell? Okay..
• When you ask me a question obviously I will answer. I’m not talking back.
What do you want from me!? My goodness.